I try to do a lot, and I achieve what I can. That’s not my line though. It belongs to a friend. I love it though so I’ll use it here blatantly and without asking her for permission first. However, I was talking to another friend from school the other day, and he said something I can’t just shake off that easily. He said, “It’s better to be into the things you are into”.
Now, this solved a problem I was trying to find a solution to and yet, gave me another one. Let us take both of these in order.
If you’re a regular reader, then you’ve naturally come across the posts where I cry my heart out over how difficult my life is because I took things to do and now I can’t manage them. My apologies for the long sentence and the juvenile mini-rant. However, that is how I function somehow.
I put too much on my figurative plate of things to do and managing all of the things I like doing with basic life stuff is chaos. It is chaos.
Let’s take last night. I’ve been trying to get back to my morning routine, which used to be a choreographed dance and is non-existent now. I’m taking it slowly as I incorporate things I used to do again. So, the first up on that list is exercising; callisthenics. However, last night I started working on a project for a Nanodegree I’m pursuing.
Then, at about four in the morning, I dozed off on my desk. Only to wake up at 9:20 AM instead of 7:00 AM. I had a breakfast of air and disappointment and could just take one sip off the cup of coffee I made so diligently. To make things worse, the water supply in my building went wonky. I missed a college class. Any exercise was off the table today. I feel deprived of any brain function right now.
This is very usual in how I do things, shamefully so. “Why are you always running?” A friend asked me this question some semesters ago. Well, this is the why of it; I’m always late for myself.
That is where my friend’s fantastic sentence comes in. As much as I’m into everything I do, I lack focus and balance. In that sense, maybe my high school teacher was right. Come to think of it, things I do actively are all over the place, and I keep adding more instead of decluttering it.
In that sense, even though I love everything I do, I’m not into any of it at the moment because I’m always juggling. So, instead of doing all of it at once for some inexplicable reason, I’ll stop pretending to have a balanced life and accept the fact, for once, that I can only do so much.
It’s better to be into the things you’re into, and that means, making sacrifices. You cannot always do everything. You’re a human being. So, starting today, I’ll be decluttering things I do. I won’t give up on any of it. Just, prioritise most of it and make time for the things I enjoy doing.
An anonymous saying goes something as follows,
Find three hobbies you love: one to make you money, one to keep you in shape, and one to be creative.
I already have the last one checked by the writing, blogging and reading. All of them fall in one because one cannot exist without the other. I guess, I just need to find my first two and maybe then, try to prove the saying wrong.
So, instead of going all-in with blinds, I guess I’ll check for a change and then place a bet.
The Other Problem, You Ask?
I’m stubborn and to give up, even if temporarily, on things I want to do is going to be somewhat tricky. I guess that’s where the part about accepting the limitations of who I am as a person comes in.
I hope my little paradigm shift helps you get perspective if nothing else.