How It Feels To Be A (Temporary) College Dropout

A few months back with this post I began my college life and a few days back I dropped out of Architecture for a number of reasons but mainly because I wasn’t feeling very inspired by the work. The picture of architecture that I had in mind wasn’t something which matched with what they taught us and hence, I decided to take that impulsive but bold step. (Yes, I’m praising myself in passive voice, I’m back to doing stuff like self-gloating it helps keep the me together.) Onto the main post now, How it feels to be a college dropout, even though temporarily.

One, it feels fresh, this is something I learned very recently, I finally have free time and it’s a relatively fresh feeling because when you come to think of it, I’ve never had spare six months at hand. There are ample things to do and ample opportunities to grab and ample ideas to go for but it seems with the sense of fresh freedom comes the sense of I’m on a vacation which is definitely not the case but I’ve become more lazy up until today, I get up late, I don’t do anything besides gaming and watching stuff so there’s that – a pro and a con of freedom. I plan to change things now that is why I’m writing here. It seems the blog always brings me back to my senses somehow. Also, there is that constant feeling of loneliness where you don’t have people around at all but that is natural in itself, I guess.

As I said earlier, I have a lot of things to do and a lot of things to think of now that I don’t have an academic obligation for a while. I can focus on my future academic plans and get to joining courses which would benefit me in the long run or I could set out to explore India (which unfortunately and rightly so, my family won’t allow because reasons.) or I could not waste my time and do something I’ve planned to do for a long time now – write. I am not sure which path I’ll take because as bright as options sound, deciding among them is still a pretty hard task to do. That was a random ramble of the New Era of the Polymath mentioned a few posts back.