Since the last Understanding Myself post a lot of things have happened and I’ve learnt a lot and grown as a person. I’m still the cynic but I’m not sad. Even after getting insulted by the Principal at my school because I couldn’t march perfectly I got normal pretty faster than I usually do or used to do. 🙂
A few weeks ago I watched About Time and at the end I realised a very simple detail, casually pointed out in the movie – Each day gives us those stupid, frustrating situations and as the protagonist [Spoiler Alert] can travel in time, he uses his power to live a day like he lives his rest and then come back in time to the same day and observe the things that make him happy. The things that he missed in the main attempt. The little, good things.
Later he comes to the conclusion of living each day like he’s travelling back in time and stop worrying about anything. That is the moment he stops using his power. This is what I’ve started to incorporate, since a few weeks I’ve started sitting still suddenly and observing the laughs, smiles, stupid moments and as a result, I’m more content and happy. I don’t stay sad and alone anymore.
I have friends I can be proud of. Finally. Those people cherish moments all of us spend together. Nowadays we are actually in the last moments of our school life and those 2-3 last days I had in the class where everyone is talking and laughing, even the class teacher; I just sat still for 5 minutes and observed and yes, I smiled and that moment is saved in HD inside my mind palace. (Sherlock reference intended)
So, that’s the third part, first is accepting the hatred, second is comprehending and understanding pain, your’s and others’ and as I’ve recently discovered, third is valuing what’s around you and with you instead of cursing everything and everyone. Now even if things happen, I try to stay calm or forget what happened. Though it doesn’t work always but trying doesn’t hurt either.