“Someday, something will happen which will force you to believe. What happens is irrelevant and what you believe in isn’t important, what matters is that you will believe.”
These words were spoken by a certain father figure when I was a kid and I proclaimed my disbelief for all things worth believing in; horoscopes, religion and everything in between and around. I didn’t pay much heed to them since I was a kid and that’s what we were supposed to do, not care.
It seems, that something has finally happened. A certain someone I really like talking to said something like “You’re a cusp and cusps are complicated” and I was clueless, no one has ever mentioned this term to me before and upon a little Googling I found that there are periods of transition of one zodiac sign to another and those who are born in between that transition are cusps and inherently, possess both those qualities and obviously, at first, I was like this is just another piece of the zodiac bullshit. Yes, I did think of that but after reading just 5 words my opinion changed. Not just any five words, five words that everyone has screamed to me, shouted at me, scolded me with over the last 18 years. These five words were,
“Weaknesses: Cynical, sarcastic, picky, self-absorbed, blunt.”
While these are randomly arranged negative words for almost all of you, for me, these are the things that are wrong with me since time immemorial.
“Could you stop being a cynic, what’s wrong with you?”
“Can you stop with the sarcasm please?”
“Try to accept things, stop being picky about each detail?”
“Wow, so the self-absorbed Deepansh Khurana will take the limelight again while we only initiate topics because he always has something to say?”
“Can you be a little modest, why are you so blunt, it hurts at times?”
The fact that these five words together hit me hard was proof that something was happening. Something I just didn’t understand and never gave time to. I know the intelligentsia would still go on and say that these are pretty general terms and how they don’t apply to all the people born in the Libra-Scorpio cusp but I would just have one single reply for them, “People dedicated their lives to study and study and go on to finally consider these five words, in that order, as weaknesses for the Libra-Scorpio cusp, how is that a coincidence?”
After those five words, the more I read, the more I was shocked. This is why I could never believe in horoscopes and zodiac signs in the first place because Scorpio just didn’t describe me and it was frustrating. Now I know why that was the case.
Over the last few months I’ve started believing in something bigger than myself. I’m still not religious though and I never will be because I have a good enough argument there but I believe now that no one would dedicate their lives to study something if it makes no sense and that there might be things which are in fact bigger than all of us. All we need to do is, look.